Summer :)

Welcome cross country season. I have been away getting everything together for this year's cross country season. As usual, I'm running around with my head cut off getting everything organized, falling asleep in the middle of the day getting used to my routine, then wasting the day away as if I had nothing to do. Last summer was hard with homework and it's been a joy to at least have some time to catch up on the things that I have wanted to do. Photoshop has been my friend as of late and unlike most years, I have been able to edit and post pictures fairly quickly, which should make my life down the line a lot easier, I hope! I still have a lot to do with Mammoth and Hawaii coming up, however, it's a joy to have summer finally here to enjoy! Seven weeks will go by fast, but I'll be sure to enjoy every minute of those seven weeks! The beaches have been wonderful, the events spectacular, and the training, it's coming along :) We'll see how it ends up :D

Coming up in the next 12 months ...
Sacramento
San Francisco
Mammoth
Honolulu
Las Vegas
Alabama?
San Diego
Orlando
Washington DC
New York
Europe or Japan?
San Diego
Myrtle Beach?

Easy

If it was easy, I'd be walking with you hand in hand down the beach as the sun set over the horizon as we paced towards our blanket where our dinner on the beach awaited. No appointments, no deadlines, just you, me, and the serenity of our environment. The gentle breeze would cool us from the warm summers air as it causes your hair to sway in the wind.

If it was easy, I'd be able to tell you how amazing you are and how incredible you make me feel. How each word that you say leaves a footprint on my heart and latches onto my soul. How your laugh makes my knees week and how the anticipation of a day of when we will see each other next brings butterflies in my stomach. If it was easy, I could tell you this.

While many may say it is easy, they do not see the chains and shackles that bind me, the obstacles I must overcome, and the history that leads most to believe that it is not meant to be. It's not easy, for me anyway. The scars that are left have shown that I have been broken, beaten, and taken advantage of, leaving me vulnerable. Allowing vulnerability once more is difficult, which is why I turn to you to make it easier by restoring my confidence that this road will be easy, helping me to unlock these binds.

My opportunity awaits me, like a ripened tomato awaits on the vine waiting to be picked, however, that tomato will one day no longer exist on that vine if the wait becomes too long. While I see that the opportunity has presented itself, I must first find the sign that leads me to the key that will free me from the binds. Until then, I must wait to release this dream of mine into a world of reality.