Thursday, March 31, 2011

the dreams of reality and the reality of dreams

have you every caught yourself daydreaming? i'm sure that we all have at some point and the question is, at what point does that dream you find a reality and do your dreams become more realistic. while we hope to be optimistic, at some point, you draw the line where you think you dream is at a point of being more like a memory of a past experience, while on the other end your reality can sometimes feel all too much like a dream.

so how do you know which is which? how do you really know that what you are "dreaming" is not actually reality and what you think is "reality" is not really a dream. could we be living a dream and dreaming a reality?

as i ask myself this, i always hope for a dreamlike state to my life, where i have the talents to go after what i want, to have the guts to chase after what i want, and to have the perseverance to ultimate arrive where i wanted to be. while there are periods and moments where this is the case, the true dream is this reality would result in this becoming a daily routine.

however, i sit back and realize, it has not yet happened, as i am harshly thrown back into my own reality, hoping to find that dream that makes me hope for something greater than this. as while i am content, i know there is so much more out there waiting for me. whether in a dream or in reality, i will seek out my goals and finally reach them no matter what it takes.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

end of the first quarter

tomorrow ends the first quarter of the year and i figured it would be a good time to evaluate just how this year has gone.

i am quite surprised by the progress i have made in many areas. while i feel that there is still much room for improvement (need greater efficiency), i am proud to have progressed from where i was to where i am now.

my goal for the next quarter is to grab the bull by the horns, break through the wall, and increase my progress from this point. while i state no specifics here, my improvement will shine through if i succeed ... scratch that ... when i succeed :)

steps

fifteen million one hundred thousand
steps that i must take
each with confidence and with pride
never thinking it's a mistake

each stride i will consider
just where this road will lead
as for me, you are my gardner
as in me, you planted a seed

it took but just three hundred
seconds, a tock and a tick
as i hoped from that moment on
it was me that you would pick

if this journey takes a year
traveling from cold winter to stormy fall
even if it takes my very last breath
you'd bet i'd give my all

so i find myself with my bags packed
a jouney, i'm on my way
through rain, sleet, snow and sun
i'll be by your side one day

through the desert, up the river
over hills and to mountain peaks
i will dedicate every ounce of me
to overcome when i get weak

as fifteen million one hundred thousand
my count now begins at one
on a quest to win your heart
my journey to you has now begun



jason, 3/30/11, 11:27pm

Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Call

sometimes you must take a chance
on the line, you risk it all
to come up with an answer
when the opportunity calls

as sometimes there's no second chance
only one opportunity may come your way
when the call happens to come your way
what are you going to say

don't hesitate in spoken word
say something if you think you should
rise up to a difficult challenge
if it's something you think you could

don't back down from the naysayers
take a risk with something new
as even when someone says something
it doesn't necessarily make it true

talk to that certain somebody
even if you feel you may not have a chance
spice it up and do something out of the ordinary
as there's potential it will enhance

with anxiety should come perseverance
rising up beyond the wall
yet none of this will be possible
if you don't take a second to answer the call

know that defeat and disappointments
are always a part of the road
yet with each you've left a sprinkling
of seeds that will eventually grow

now that you hear the ringing
answer the call that is coming your way
open that door to a new world around you
as your new life will begin this very day

jason, 3/17/11, 10:53am

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Droplet

the droplets fall from the sky
gently on the window's pane
times like these recalling
in conditions just the same

like tears that may be falling
likes seasons emotions change
from joy, to sadness, and laughter
to sheer and utter pain

the comfort of the droplets
like melodies of a song
individually do they enter
yet as one they move along

while some may run for shelter
a shelter it can provide
as a safe and warm environment
provided until the storm subsides

whether small or large, in drizzles or in droves
it all may be the same
as it can come with fury
while tranquility it may maintain

the pitter patter on the pane
as reality fades out and in
as i sit and wait by the window
to see how the story will begin

each droplet tells a tale of its own
on its own course it will proceed
one could only guess where
this droplet's path will lead

farewell fair droplet, find your course
keep your identity as your own
seek for greatness, for the highest peak
where you will your final throne

jason, 3/16/11, 11:09pm

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Only If

only if
a second chance
romance
a simple glance

a pathway
to your heart
another chance
to restart

a little hope
of success
opportunity
to be the best

a magical moment
to arrive
the ability
to survive

traveling
to explore
a stranger
arriving at your door

a mysterious
packaged gift
a hidden treasure?
one can only wish

all these moments
potential bliss
we hope for perfection
only if

jason, 3/13/11, 6:32pm

Moving On

disaster and failures
life is a mess
it's hard to perceive
so hard to digest

the pressure is mounting
the bill pile high
all my good future
has seemingly gone by

the darkness spreads
all around it consumes
yet a small little seed sprouts
in the middle of the room

with little water or care
it has continued to survive
against all odds
through the ground it has arrived

battling the toughest of odds
all obstacles surpassed
it has emerged from the soil
life, arriving at last

the hope that is gathered
from a simple seedlet
is something we should never
allow ourselves to forget

as in the absolute
darkest of times
deep in the soil
hope we can find

to emerge from the ashes
when all hope is gone
we shall rise up again
continue moving on

jason, 3/13/11, 6:20pm

Then & Now

is this a dream
or can this be real
confusion exists
in how i do feel

as in this intersection
in limbo i am
in a place where there's hope
that i can do all that i can

where dreams are like reality
reality like dreams
as what seems so real
really isn't want it seems

where the clouds disappear
the sun fades away
where the day seems like night
the night feels like day

the stars so magnificent
so close they appear
yet objects you see
may not be as close as they appear

as i feel as if in heaven
floating along
as emotions expressed
in the melody of song

i'm not sure where these moments exist
yet i will find out some how
a dream, maybe a look ahead
possibly reality, my then & now

jason, 3/13/11, 5:59pm

The Now

a day before
a day ahead
life is what happens
in between instead

when you're expecting too much
doing too little
it's always those things
right in the middle

life throws unexpected
twists and turns
it often uses experiences
so lessons are learned

it shows you a sign
gives you a chance
all which are gone
if you take a second glance

enjoy the day you're given
don't let it pass by
as today is your day
go enjoy that blue sky

as tomorrow, who knows
yesterday is gone
today is the day to go out
and have fun

so accept that invitation
go out on a limb
allow yourself a chance
for a new life to begin

jason, 3/13/11, 5:52pm

Re-Rising Sun

i can barely stand and watch
the ocean's forces arrive
the ground still trembling below
people trying to simply survive

the houses and cars washed away
by a force too strong to fight
as the people hope for protection
from mother nature's might

the scenes of destruction and demolition
can be much too much to bear
yet recovery can take over
if the burden we can share

the people will be able to
rise to their feet once again
if there are people to help them up
to be there 'til the end

put aside any and all differences
worry less about their own state
to reach out to those in greater need
before it's much too late

with help the houses will be rebuilt
the spirits once again restored
the lives will once again continue
prosperity will be headed towards

the sun will rise once again in this land
the skies will once again be blue
with the people of this world coming together
doing all they can possibly do

jason, 3/13/11, 5:05pm

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Battle for You

to win this very battle
i'd pull out all the stops
use the best weaponry
to ensure i'd come out on top

i'd sacrifice my body
risking wounding my flesh and bone
as the pain cannot compare
to that without you, all alone

i'd use my heart 'til its last beat
to ensure i gave it my all
knowing i could give nothing more
even if i fall

i'd raise my soul up to the heavens
holding nothing back
to win your soul, the treasure
something i cannot lack

as i would climb the highest peak
cross the largest waterway
if i knew that i could see you
of my life's each and every day

i'd give my last ounce of water
my last morsel of food
my last breath in this great place
if it meant fighting off those that intrude

as in this very battle, i will not hold back
as the reward is one of a kind
as i will give everything and more
to ensure that in the end you might be mine

jason, 3/12/11, 2:55pm

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Flawless

unusual habits
a hair out of place
not too adventurous
unrefined tastes

not very athletic
unable to cook
of a different race
not having that look

cultural differences
religion not the same
not very talkative
full of fortune and fame

too skinny, too heavy
too tall or too short
skin that is too dark
will often lead to an abort

take a step back
take a look deep within
to see where these flaws
truly begin

as you discover a new road
walking hand in hand
two flawed individuals
who truly understand

that there are no flaws
simply differences between each
that may diverge from the norm
each other can teach

celebrate diversity
as differences are not flaws
as it may begin to uncover
the most amazing of them all

jason 3/10/11, 10:41pm

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Hallway

i walk down an empty hall
not a soul around
as from my past these echoes
around me do resound

haunted by painful memories
of the past i thought i left behind
yet in this open hallway
no shelter can i find

as i look up ahead
a door that could be my escape
yet slowed down by the nightmares
that may control my ultimate fate

how do i release myself from this
hallway of the past
as i had hoped that all that was wrong
would not be able to last

this hallway has continued to live
not allowing me to find what i need
as my ability to succeed is limited
as i search for the answers to relieve

full of dark painful memories
that i wished would remained locked away
so that i may reach that door at the end
where a new opportunity will come my way

i look to fight off the ghosts of the past
will they say what they want from me
so that i may move through that door
from their bounds i will be freed

jason, 3/10/11, 6:02am (EST)

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

People

there's a reason for each person
that steps into your life
whether it be friends or family
possibly your future wife

as each person will give you a lesson
that will help develop your mind
as you will collect the resources
to help you on your climb

you never know the importance
of the simplest of things
as it may help reap great benefits
with success it may bring

don't ever count out the chances
a little skill may come to use
so begin collecting all these lessons
like an interstate toll booth

these people that may arrive
have something special to provide
as they will make the future road
quite the exciting ride

so place your hand in front of you
shake with vigor and communicate well
as you don't know the importance of this person
as only time will be able to tell

jason, 3/9/11, 2:12am

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Strangers

our paths cross
without a glance
passing through opposite doors

not knowing if
we're missing something
a possible chance to explore

as every day
these moments
with strangers that we pass by

no conversations
communication
no attempt, not even a try

what doors are
slamming before us
what chances do we miss

is a hidden gem
buried within?
are we missing out on true bliss?

so we head past
one another
yet i can't help but wonder

is our pace
in which we move
our life's greatest blunder?

hustle and bustle
we continue on
a chance? we'll never know

strangers then
strangers now
as on our own paths we shall go

jason, 3/7/11, 12:44am (EST)

Reminders

it's how things seem
to fall in place
the certain way
a food tastes

the colors of the
sky this day
the certain way
it was displayed

the smells around
that ignites
a memory
of that one night

the time, the day
the month, the year
that seems to make all else
disappear

as all these moments
do remind
of that day when prodigious
i did find

the day when two lives
intertwined
the day when you
i did find

so on my path
every day
the memories
all around my way

remind me
of things so sweet
to help fulfill
make it truly complete

jason, 3/7/11, 12:33am (EST)

Friday, March 4, 2011

Nonsense

An old poem I found!

i've given you roses
the freshest of the bunch
i spent all my time to
prepare you a lunch

i've gotten you chocolates
just how you liked
i've serenaded you
with all of my heart in that mic

i've written you letters
from my heart the words came
i've shown you things
you'll never look at the same

i've take you places
that you never seen
i've tried to awaken your senses
to make it feel like a dream

yet despite all my efforts
each minute i spend
it always seem like
you want it to end

as i've poured my last ounce
wiped my last droplet of sweat
despite my attempts to show you
a world you'll never forget

the smells and the tastes
the sights and the sounds
i'll take to a place
where in them amazing will be found

as while in my eyes you are special
while my senses you awake
i won't wait around
until my heart you can break

maybe one day you'll realize
that there is something you lack
it'll be that day you'd wish
you'd have this opportunity back

jason

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Favorites

i want to learn everything about you
from your likes to your dislikes
to the things that turn you off
to others that may excite

your favorite colors and movies
the foods you like to eat
what you look for in each day
to make that day truly complete

what books do you like to read
what shows do you watch on tv
what are your favorite moments
why did they make you so happy

how will you react
to different stimuli
tell me what things make you sad
so i avoid making you cry

i want to know your favorite flower
to see it displayed in your hair
i'd hope to know your favorite place to go
so that i may take you there

i would want to take your favorites
to assimilate them with mine
so that one day in mine and yours
a union we could find

as i learn more about you
from all that i gather every single day
the questions left unanswered
slowly fade away

with each bit of information
that to me you do convey
makes me realize even more that you are
the favorite of my every day

jason, 3/2/11, 10:58pm

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Adventure

collecting the food
stashing it away
it was off to adventure
on this wonderful day

the air so crisp
you knew it would be fun
as we set out for the land
where amusement begun

from high speed coasters
climbing so high
in the dark, an adventure
as the scenes go flying by

a yeti, a train
squished in a seat
such memories, the memories
good times did we meet

lions and tigers
and zebras, oh my
seen on the river
as one goes cruisin' by

the back side of water
a remix ensued
on a temple of doom
a place to intrude

with aim and precision
one can reign supreme
a day oh so grand
you thought it was a dream

as day turned to night
it was time to dine
as the pesto was amazing
dessert, quite the design

the colors and music
with the water sky high
with a electronic experience
as it was almost time to say goodbye

yet before our departure
we fell from the sky
as the lights floated ahead
no matter how hard we tried

as we walked through the gates
the night faded away
as we left the happiest place on earth
on a fairytale-filled day

jason, 3/2/11, 11:21am

Weathering

umbrellas and ponchos
hoodies prepared
from the storms overhead
protection we shared

as others may try
to rain on our parade
let's celebrate this world
which for us two was made

as thunder and lightning
hail storms may come
yet stronger we'll emerge
when we overcome

with you by my side
no storm is too great
as no matter how terrible
i know what'll be our fate

ice storms and freezing
three feet of snow
in the worst of conditions
our bonds will continue to grow

as while storms may come
and storms may pass
i know that you and i
will always outlast

jason, 3/2/11, 1:38am

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Cookie Cutter

if i could shape the world
with a cookie cutter dream
it would be so simple
to understand what you mean

the secret, hidden messages
the signs i must look for
leave me all mix up
as i know not what to look for

in this world i shape i cut a piece
a heart, clear as day
sprinkle on some sugar
hoping you'd know what i want to say

i'd spice it up with cinnamon
add some frosting too
to let you know that this world i made
was cut out just for you

as i can not imagine
anything as super sweet
as the day that i first met you
when you made my recipe complete

so as i put it in the oven
preparing to serve this world to you
thanks for providing the ingredients
for this world i never knew

jason, 3/1/11, 11:58am

I Hate You

i hate you because i was standing
in the pour rain
i hate you because you put me
through so much pain

i hate you because you never called
when you said you would
i hate you because you never did
all that you could

i hate you because you never let me know
that you were leaving with your friends
i hate you because this pain i feel
never really ends

i hate you because you never wrote back
to the letter i put my heart into
i hate you because i love you so much
just for being you

i hate the fact that i can't stop
my heart from calling out your name
i hate the fact that no other relationship
could ever be the same

i hate that i poured so much
into something where so little was gained
i hate the fact that you acted
like it was all a little game

yet what i hate the most
is that i never told you all this before
as you left this place i knew i'd hate the fact
you'd never come running back to my door

jason, 3/1/11, 11:38am