this place

i come to this very spot
thinking of the time
back when things were wonderful
with you always on my mind

knowing that things were perfect
that we grew together in this place
yet our world together
was slowly being erased

as once i was standing with you
now i stand alone
wishing that maybe one day
this feeling would come back home

you left me in the rain
without shelter from this storm
lacking any protection
like a blanket to keep me warm

time has passed since you have gone
since these days have floated away
yet i stand in this very spot
hoping that feeling will come back my way

this spot is such a razor
as it slices at my heart
yet it is the one place
i know that i must restart

as i leave the past behind me
on this corner where me met
knowing all too well
that you'll be impossible to forget

however i'll find someone who
about this place will think the same
when my heart will once again be free
my ability to love will be reclaimed

jason, 2/21/11, 11:20pm

silence

silence dominates in this place
as the voice has disappeared
"how to communicate without it"
something that you have feared

as silence is said to be awkward
creating discomfort so easily
a conversation without a sound
would be easier than it seems

as the body may convey
a message that is more sincere
a gentle hug or caress
a wiping away of a tear

a pat on the back, a gentle push
a thumbs up in the air
two hands interconnected
fingers through one's hair

even greater is the conversation held
with a look deep within one's eyes
as the messages that can be conveyed
you truly would be surprised

as a look that may show concern
a tear that may appear
a twinkle that comes with excitement
one that may come with fear

with silence may come tranquility
a time to ponder and reflect
to find peace in what's around us
to enjoy things we time and time neglect

sometimes we get so wrapped up
in all that around us surrounds
when sometimes all we need is silence
in our where escape can be found

jason, 2/21/11, 6:01pm

still

hand in hand, a union
a pair stood along the bluff
wondering if the love you had
would truly be enough

the dates that turned into chemistry
a look in the eyes made it clear
that this love that existed
would never disappear

spending time in the alley
showing those pins who was boss
a snowy skiing adventure
up, down, and across

fishing in the mountains
driving along the sea
no matter what you had planned
you were as happy as can be

as parents you did your duty
raising your children with care
a joy that you were so lucky
with each other you could share

while time has come and gone
there are things that remain the same
since that very special day
since you shared a single last name

you have circumvented the toughest times
the obstacles you have faced
as the stains that may have arrived
you worked together to erase

hand in hand you still stand together
sharing a life in which you coexist
knowing these could have been nothing better
than a union as wonderful as this

jason, 2/21/11, 4:55pm

fort

slowly have the walls confined
what i felt so deep inside
others may not have seen
the process of the building

the fort in which has surrounded me
has not allowed me to be free
as distance has always been kept
as uncomfortable since i have slept

the fortifications that have risen up
like the walls of a coffee cup
to hold its contents safely within
very little chance of caving in

as desperation has crept in
to allow a revolution to begin
as these walls have surely taken a toll
the battle begins for my soul

earth, water, wind, and fire
freedom is what these elements desire
as this fort that leaves a barrier ahead
must be conquered and put to bed

as the demons of past have disappeared
as the fort was built because of fear
yet you helped me overcome
the key to the door to my freedom

jason, 2/21/11, 4:12pm

believe

believe in who you are

in what you aspire to be

to be the next great person

by opening your eyes up to see

believe in what you strive for

that you can reach your goals

that you will find all the pieces

to make your puzzle whole

believe in all that you live for

for your family and your friends

who will be there to protect you

their helping hand they're sure to lend

believe in what you hope for

run towards your wildest dreams

for all that you may considered impossible

may be closer than it seems

believe in what you fail in

that soon you'll find success

as i'm confident you'll reach your target

as i know you won't settle for less

believe that prosperity

lies within the wings

as with the confidence and the trust

good fortune it will bring

believe that great things can happen

that the possibilities are endless for you

believe in all things

and great things will happen to you

jason, 2/18/10, 2:07am

My Everyday

i looked around for a gift for you

spending all of a few days

trying to find that perfect thing

to say what i hoped to convey

i also looked for the recipe

that would sweep you off your feet

to surpass all competition

leaving all others racing to compete

i made sure that the music was perfect

the mood so well thought out

this would be the perfect valentines day

i could guarantee, without a doubt

yet as i thought about it more

this day was nothing more than the next

wondering why so much attention was paid

to this day which made things so complex

as what we have does not need a holiday

to put our love on display

as our valentines day in my eyes

is every moment of every day

it's not like i don't want to celebrate

spending my time in this regard

yet its just that we don't need a holiday

to show just what we are

so on this day i will announce

how wonderful i think you are

yet this will not stop on this day

as everyday you're my shining star

jason, 2/15/11, 12:27am

A Valentines to Friends and Family

you've stood by me

through the thick and thin

there at the finish line

even before i begin

never backing down

always pushing me through

my success in my life

has been all because of you

the love that i have for you

i could not even say

as you are the essence

of my everyday

you are the key

that unlocks my heart

it's not coffee i reach for, but you

to get my day off to a start

while people may come

others may go

there's one sure thing

that i will always know

that true friends and family

will never leave that place by your side

as they will be cemented to you

on life's amazing ride

on this valentine's day

which most celebrate with one

i feel there are others whom

without nothing would be done

so i say that i love you

with all of my heart and soul

to all of my friends and my family

for doing more than your role

for going the extra mile

even when you run out of time

i'm so lucky that in my life

you, i was able to find

happy valentines day

jason, 2/14/11, 12:31am

My Last Valentine

i doodle your name

i say it out loud

to be your protector

i will commit to those vows

to shower you with

each drop of my soul

as you're the one piece

that makes my life whole

if i could write you a poem

i'd hope it would make you fall in love

making you feel like you can float

to the clouds up above

as to me you do all that

plus so much more

as you're my life's symphony

and i want an encore

you bring out the sparks

the fireworks within

as you are the reason

i wait for my day to begin

as i script out each word

you are in the center of my mind

as you are my motivation

inspiration in you i can find

i'd get you a flower

a dozen or more

to show you that it's you

that i do adore

yet flowers are useless

as they cannot express

the feelings you evoke in me

so deep in my chest

as you're the dot on my "i"s

the cross on my "t"s

on a hot summer day

you're my cool sea breeze

you're as sweet as honey

yet as down-to-earth as they come

since the day i first met you

i thought you could be the one

you're so much and more

yet you don't even know

that you're the source

that allows me to grow

i haven't spoken the words

haven't really given you a sign

yet i know it won't be long

let's just give it some time

so i'll sit back and pray

hoping that one day true love we'll find

hoping on this very day one year

you'll be my last valentine

jason, 2/14/11, 12:24am

Sick

i feel as if i am crazy

as the sweat falls from my face

as the memory of you

from my mind cannot be erased

you've made an imprint on my heart

of course, it's on my mind too

as my instability as of late

is all because of you

i cannot keep my focus

as distractions are a plenty

the items on my to do list

have increased to over twenty

as nothing seems as important

since the day you walked into my sphere

changing all within it

from the earth to the atmosphere

i'm exhausted every single day

as i've been watching you run through my mind

as i seek for a way to cure this sickness

a resolution i seek to find

i think nothing more than to proclaim

that you've become a nucleus to me

that binds my life together

like the cream in an oreo cookie

you're the best thing to arrive in life

since the invention of sliced bread

like teflon plates and the automobile

cheese that is already shred

i sound confused and maybe sick

it's true, i really am

yet i do not need a doctor

it would be a worthless medical exam

as all i need is your attention

to allow for all this sickness to depart

as your love and care would be the bandaid

i could use to bandage my heart

jason, 2/14/11, 12:09am

Artichoke

the artichoke so difficult

a challenge it can be

yet deep within the thistle

is something few will see

most will avoid the artichoke

comparing what they may find

making the biggest mistake

as they overlooked the signs

as with a little bit of labor

from heart, a touch of love

one something hidden

that most would not think of

as deep within the layers lies

a treasure, it's very heart

that takes some time to get to

as now would be a good time to start

since i discovered this artichoke

that others may have overseen

i cannot find myself going back

as the artichoke reigns supreme

as at the core lies the secret

that others will never get to taste

something i will treasure forever

never allowing any of it to go to waste

the artichoke, i love you

no matter what others may say

as you are the centerpiece of my everything

the reason for my everyday

jason 2/13/11, 11:49pm

Butterflies

i opened up my eyes
the butterflies in full force
as active as they were
i did not realize the source

i tried to go back to sleep again
squinting tightly with my eyes
it only took a moment more
for me to realize

that ever since the day i met you
life has been turned upside down
my nights a little more restless
my feet floating above the ground

my mind tends to wander
as i get shivers down my spine
hoping to find in this box of hearts
the one that says, "be mine"

as you are the toppings
that brings life to an ice cream cone
the savior from the mundane
company when i feel alone

just a single though of you
can put a smile on my face
you've tattoed your name on my heart
that can never be erased

you are the engine of my car
the remote to my tv
without you in my life
i'm not sure about my functionality

you are the water in my cooler
the flavor in my tea
in my painted masterpiece
you're all the colors that i see

you're the buckle on my belt
the ink within my pen
if i had the chance to relive my life
i'd hope we'd meet again

as you're the lines on my highway
that guide me back to home
since the day i met you
more inclined to you i've grown

your hand is the one
that i want intertwined with mine
as you are so incredible
worth every second of my time

so as the butterflies do their thing
i reach in my closet for my pants
just hoping that in this lifetime
with you, i'll have a chance

jason 2/10/11, 7:08am

Leap of Faith

it's not the scale that matters
the color of the skin
it's about the motivation
that lies so deep within

with many obstacles one may face
they may seem gigantic in size
yet if you really look at it closely
you're sure to be surprised

the chances could be in your favor
if you only take that leap
as there will be no mountain too high
a slope that's ever too steep

gather all your confidence
know that you're prepared
if you give it your all
i know just how you'll fare

take that one step forward
don't take a second to look back
as you'll fly so high in the sky
no matter how high the obstacles are stacked

never think you are inadequate
that the skills you do not possess
as i know you can take this challenge
giving your all, nothing but the best

you've reach the point of no return
it's time to find success
i'll know that soon you'll be overhead
quickly rising above the rest

jason 2/7/11, 10:08pm

Learning Curve

some adventures last four years
for some it may be just one
yet their days of high school over
as alumni their lives have begun

for many as little innocent freshmen
lost and clueless the first day
have grown to young adults
who have picked and chosen their own way

it was tough to see them struggle
through the worst of times it felt
what joy it was to celebrate
when success was what life dealt

as they head off in their own way
it's hard not to be attached
with all the wonderful experiences
you'd wish they all could last

in college and in careers
you hope for them nothing but the best
hoping you prepared them
for one of life's many tests

the ups and downs are grueling
knowing it's apart of the learning process
understanding now it's my job
to push them towards success

so it's a brand new morning
a new flock have found their place
it's time to teach life's lessons
preparing for the challenges they will face

jason 2/7/11 10:28am

Fairytale Dream

as my head lay down to rest
i thought of nothing but the best
the stars were shining oh so bright
all was well, all was right

i stood within a field this eve
a place i felt i did not want to leave
as glowing in the sky, the moon
this fairytale dream ended too soon

each day i wonder where it went
if this eve was heaven sent
as an angel appeared in my dream that night
radiating with the most magestic lights

hand in hand we walked across
my heart, my soul were at a loss
as this one eve felt so unreal
to me perfection was revealed

as in any fairytale you may have seen
an ordinary woman can become a queen
yet a queen is already what i had met
an evening which i will never forget

where did you go this dream of mine
i'll search for you one more time
then day after day i'll search some more
until you come back to my door

each night i lay my head to rest
i remember this eve that was the best
the night when my heart one did steal
was it a dream or could it have been real


jason 2/7/11, 11:37am

Poetry Blog Fail

I have failed in including my poetry blog on this site, therefore, I will begin posting my poems on this blog as I write them. Keep a look out for one coming out today!

Superbowl Sunday was Quite Super

I have been anticipating this game for weeks and have hoped for a game like this for years. The Packers have not made the Superbowl since 1998 when they lost in San Diego in what I thought would be an easy win. However, the previous year, they were victorious over the New England Patriots. In my lifetime, this was only the third trip to the Superbowl for the Green Bay Packers and I could not have asked for a better game.

With the stress of covering the spread, having a perfect ending number, and simply winning the game, I rarely left my seat in front of the television, which was fine because I was in the presence of good company, mostly Packer fans or at least people cheering for the Packers. In the end, the celebration was exciting and worth every minute I spent sitting in front of the television.

Thanks to everyone for the delicious food and for the wonderful night! I could not have asked for a more super Superbowl experience! :)

The Life of a Famous Musician & Artist

Okay, so maybe not FAMOUS, but can't a boy dream????

A student at our school gathered the students and staff in order to create a music video which was trying to bring the campus together to share in a common project. It was kind of neat to be apart of the video, however, I've become too famous for my own good with people imitating my moves (luckily very few were shown in the video), calling my Katy, or asking for my autograph (as a joke of course). In any case, now all the people in the video share a common bond and possibly have created a different image for ourselves in the eyes of the student body and the staff, I assume. Of course, I'm sure my students were used to this type of antics from me, as making music videos is one of my favorite hobbies.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IrQrKT4F10k&feature=player_embedded

I have been working on a music video for the cover of Rocketeer. Currently, I have been shooting footage of people, as well as doing self-produced scenes, which is incredible difficult to get the right lighting, focus, and angles. Soon, I can get to the editing and then shooting the filler scenes when I get back from Washington, DC. I also am going to re-record the soundtrack so that it's completely original (obviously using the lyrics and the sheet music). We'll see how it all ends up and if I will end up shooting my final scenes on February 21st. I guess with all that's going on, an early March date would be a good target date for completion! I am somewhat excited for what I can produce.

I've also approached the completion and publishing of my poetry book! I did finish my first book, however, I decided that if I was really going after publishing it, it may be smart to make it as comprehensive as possible. Obviously proofreading and reformatting the first fifty poems will be a chore, however, before the summer comes, I should be able to find my book online at Amazon, Borders, or Barnes & Nobles, I hope :P We'll see, but that would be super cool. My target is 100 poems, however, we'll see what comes about over the next few months.

In any case, music videos, poetry, and of course travel plans are all in my agenda now along with my normal school, MUN, basketball, and track preparations. It'll be exciting to see what February will bring. I know it will bring lots of time consuming days ... next week is a 75-80 hour week excluding my first day of travel to DC :(