Unconditional

You often discover that loving unconditionally is the most difficult thing to do and sometimes the most difficult to find. Often times your wants and needs outweigh (at least it seems at the time) the value of a shared relationship, only to realize that it was not worth it. I've often caught myself arguing over things that have little or no value versus the precious relationship established with another individual whether it be a family member, friend, or significant other.

Loving unconditionally is the only way you can truly show someone that you care for them despite their faults, despite the problems you may face, and despite all the obstacles that may come your way. No one on this planet is perfect, so we must be able to continue to love despite the faults that exist.

So how do you find the way to unconditional love? Who knows, but when you are able to do so, you'll find that there is a good chance that your undying enthusiasm for life will also be found, as when you love unconditionally, the world becomes a great place, for you and for me and the entire human race (Michael Jackson).

It is better to love and lost than to never have loved before! (Alfred Lloyd Tennyson)

Summer

It's officially the first weekday of summer. It feels so weird to not have work tomorrow. In fact, there isn't anything tomorrow, so I will be joining my cousins at Disneyland for the WHOLE day! Yahoo!!

As I enjoy the summer, I reflect on the many things that I will miss from this year. Writing papers, online quizzes, the 441-page portfolio, YEAH RIGHT!!!!

FREEEEEEDOOOMMM!!

Here's to a great summer :)

last breath

if this was my last breath
i'd be sure to speak your name
as my life without you in it
would not have been the same

you've showed me things in my life
that became apart of me
each memory builds to our collection
that kept me so happy

our friendship was so simple
two friends who shared this bond
that will live on until eternity
even after either one of us is gone

from jokes we told to each other
the surprises and the scares
there never was a moment
i doubted that with you time i'd love to share

so i just sit here lying
that if tonight i had my one last breath
i'd die such a lucky man
if our friendship was the only thing i had left

as all the materialistic things
will come and they will go
yet few have the opportunity to discover
a friendship like ours, that few others will ever know

you are so incredible and amazing
and i swear to it until my death
as i hope that the greatest friends will continue to be
until my last breath

jason

words

words

at a loss for words
no longer around
as when you walked in
they fell to the ground

so calm and collected
on a usual day
but all that changes
when you walk my way

my knees get weak
i get sweat in my palms
no matter what i do
my nerves will not calm

the sentences i construct
no longer as one
as my heart begins racing
true love has begun

i wish i had the words
to express how i feel
that i'm fairly confident
that this is the real deal

that all of my problems
simply disappear
when you walk in a room
and suddenly appear

yet i have not expressed
a word in this regard
as i do not know
if i'm holding the highest card

whether or not
you feel the same
as i hope my odds are good
in this complicated game

so i pick up the pieces
hoping that one day i can say
that you're my exclamation
of my sentence every day

jason
7:10am, 6/10/10

we

we

for years i've wondered
if you and me
were better off
as simply we

if our separate paths
should combine
to share what's yours
and what was mine

as we are similar
share so many things
and to each other
joy we bring

with a good time waiting
each time we meet
in victory
as well as defeat

my pepper shaker
if I were salt
together we'd produce
such fine results

so consider this
for all these years
our friendship
never disappeared

it grew ever strong
over time
a simple observation
of mine

so take a second
be prepared
as our union possible
a lifetime to be share

as it will yield
a true love's bliss
they're won't be a day
much better than this

jason
12:54pm, 6/10/10

solution

i've wandered in this place
searching far and wide
yet it did not assist me
the solutions it did not provide

the loss of faith was approaching
i thought this place had nothing left for me
yet you walked into my life
opening up my eyes to see

you showed me that the answers
are deep within the soul
that all of this vast universe
was under our control

that it's not about who's watching
but who is standing by your side
you showed me just what happens
when two universes collide

you reintroduced me to enjoyment
how it feels to really have a ball
and when you are with me
i feel like i have it all

i cannot even begin to explain
how i feel so deep inside
yet i know that when you're around
you make me feel like i can fly

you make all the impossibles
become possible in a click
you have the cure to my ailments
when i am feeling so very sick

you've stood by me and celebrated
and mourned with me as well
you're the perfect complement for me
as over time, it was easy for me to tell

so i thank you for allowing me to soar
to see things from new heights
to help me take a step back from the chaos
to allow me to make things right

to guide me in the darkness
as you were the flame to guide me through
as i was able to find my solution
my solution to my life was you

jason
12:01pm, 6/6/10

Along the Way

along the way

sometimes you go in
not expecting a thing
when spectacular happens
making your heart sing

as you take a journey
you didn't necessarily plan
only to run into
your one woman or man

sometimes you pass them
only to find them once more
while there are others
that will show up right at your door

yet no matter the case
know that each person you meet
has something so special
a hidden message, a treat

whether it be something humorous
or something to challenge you so
or the extra push that you need
to help you to continue to go

you'll find that in each journey
you'll meet people along the way
forever in your lives
they were destined to stay

so keep your head up
be aware of what's around
as you have to be ready
for the treasures waiting to be found

so head off into the sunset
tomorrow's a new day
be ready for all the amazing people
that you'll meet along the way

You Sunk My Battleship

I went into the Vegas weekend unsure if I should be going as I needed a few days to rest and catch up on some work that needed to be completed, yet I left confident that it was well worth the long nights I would have to put in this week.

Andrew is quoted as saying that this trip would give the Hangover a run for it's money. It just might. In fact, I may use my editing skills to make a movie in this epic trip ... the ups, the downs, and the plain right UGLY/DISGUSTING, yet strangely exhilarating and hilarious!

From the wandering through Encore avoiding all the security guards who probably were annoyed by our group that grew from 20 to 50 pretty quickly, the casualty that was known as a canon digital elph, the remains of Ty that I happened to walk through ... to the sighting of Paris Hilton, only by Dexter :P ... to the great memories of dancing until the last note of the final song ... no one else could hang, the spa dance, the party bus, the buffets, Kat (enough said), playing battleship/craps/blackjack w/Dan/roulette and a combination of the first two at the M, McDonalds after XS for breakfast, and who can forget the EPIC upside-down slide down the pole by Andrew himself who awed even the bouncer who must have seen hundred of strange things, yet nothing like that! ... it ended up being a trip to remember. I would say though that it would not be possible without the company of some friends and strangers who became friends so quickly!

I appreciate that we were befriended so quickly and I hope that this is not the end of the road of our wonderful memories together. While 50 is not the number I left connected two, it's always quality connections rather than quantity! Let's make sure they stay quality!

Thanks to our organizers of the trip and supplies (Andrew), the clubs (Kat), the bus (Ty), to the drivers, the instigators, the party animals, the chill ones, the battleship crew, the great dance partners who did not run away from my hyperactive dancing style and of course to the one who save my life from a 7' monster :P ... there will be so many moments that will become classic memories and maybe a few that will make page 45 of my book :) Keep an eye out for that, however, until then I say, it's time to head back into reality and get some work done!

Farewell Memorial Weekend 2010, yet hello to all the products of it! While we may have sunk each others' battleships, there is no way anyone can sink what we gained from this trip :)