~:[CH9 - Day 182]:~ We Are Family

~:[CH9 - Day 182]:~ We Are Family

It was our first picture together. For Jordan, we had our regular photos together, but sadly, due to the pandemic, Alyssa has had limited ones. However, it also reminds us how precious things like that are. We talk about photos as if they're just another photos, but in reality, they are truly precious, just like our time. We have a choice with how we spend our days. Are we productive, do we treasure these moments, do we reflect? Sadly, the challenges may block us from find good in the minutes of our days, but in reality, there are many great things we can celebrate even in times like these. Today, it was simply that we are family. As while most of the days are now spent creating in my office, finishing off projects, I will always be sure to find time in the day to celebrate the valuable things such as these. As while it's only one hour per week, those sixty minutes are the most precious of the 10,000+ minutes of the week. 

~:[CH9 - Day 181]:~ Farewell

~:[CH9 - Day 181]:~ Farewell

I finally met with my senior IAs today. It was sad to say goodbye to them, but also nice to just be out and about even if it was just for a bit. They did an excellent job this year and I only wish that they could have finished out the school year with the freshmen. Regardless, I am proud of what they accomplished through their four years in the program and glad that I got to work with them one more time. To all my freshmen, I hope you reach out to them because you got an excellent group of IAs! To all my seniors, good luck on the road ahead. I am so proud of all you accomplished and now it's time to shine and show this world just how amazing you are. As freshman you may have started out as just a sprout, but now as I look at you all, you're a field of flowers that have bloomed. I bid you farewell and hope to see you all soon!

~:[CH9 - Day 180]:~ A Little Time

~:[CH9 - Day 180]:~ A Little Time

Even a little bit of time is enough time to reconnected. I was able to get out for a bit and meet up with a small part of the Vancouver team. We just had our banquet and enjoyed the memories of the trip and it was nice being able to see a few of them after for a short while. You begin to appreciate whatever time you can get with people, which is one of the nicest parts of the pandemic, apprieciation. After I went home, I was able to finish working on a few more projects I've taken on. As sad as I am, at least I have found a few things that can keep my mind off what I've been missing. Time is moving quickly and I can only hope that we find a way to move past this a lot quicker and it will come sooner if we all can just do our part. 

~:[CH9 - Day 179]:~ Masked

~:[CH9 - Day 179]:~ Masked

The great mask debate of 2020. As I see clips of people refusing to wear a mask, it makes me sad. Aside from the fact that it's a regulation in place, the fact of the matter is, it reduces the risk for us all. Whether it's you, the people you are with or the people you live with or are around daily (if you contract it while around). The research study showed that countries requiring face masks fared much better than those without and predominately in Asian countries, masks are commonplace. It's not a cure all, but it's a preventative measure. People have posted, just like you wear a seat belt or a helmet, it's not something that will save you, but it increases your chances of survival. The mask debate is only the tip of the iceberg, however, as it spills into a number of issues we are facing as a nation due to this pandemic. From race to violence to the economy, it's a daily struggle to worry about the mountain of issues we must face moving forward. A list of issues that have left this country more divided than ever and when you sit back and listen to the arguments coming from all sides, you just wonder sometimes what are we all thinking. Part of it is there is no easy answer to all that we are going to face, but we also need to take a step back, analyze the bigger picture and see what is best for us all, rather than just our cause. How do we fix this divide, how do we eliminate the discrimination, how do we help those who are struggling and how to we heal our country and in the process, allow ourselves to heal as well. Regardless of where you stand on any of the issues I mentioned, the least we can do to start the process of solving most of these issues is simply to care about the people around us by showing care, compassion and a little bit of humanity. Spread love, not hate. Don't be afraid to speak up, but don't exchange blow for blow, as it will only make the divide greater. It's not comfortable wearing a mask and it's a bit annoying to run back into the house to get the mask you forgot, but it's the least I can do, not to protect only myself, but those around me. 

~:[CH9 - Day 178]:~ Virtually Amazing

~:[CH9 - Day 178]:~ Virtually Amazing

I ran into an issue that was truly a pain in the butt. I had to render my entire one hour timeline by small sections (typically 25-30 seconds) since I had a bad file and couldn't locate it. Because of it, I missed a few places where I needed to fix and edit and ran into a few other issues with videos that I was being sent to include in the production. Regardless, at the end of the evening, I was proud to have finished our first virtual production without a hitch (other than what I mentioned). We had about 100 people watching and unsure if there were some households watching from one stream. While I am not sure if the audio was lagging too bad, ultimately, it was the best case scenario. While I wanted to upload it to YouTube, I know the music would have caused me to have to delete the video, so ultimately, Zoom was the only choice. I wanted to give these seniors a proper send off and I am just hoping that this comes close to the real thing (although I know it will never replace it). Soon I will be writing their letters so they can have that personal message they normally would get at the banquet, but otherwise, tonight pretty much wrapped up the school year for me. I am so appreciative of the fact that I work with this program. Model UN is the reason why I started teaching and came to Cerritos and without it, I would not be here working at this wonderful school today. The students that have come out the program and amazing and I am always so proud of seeing all that they accomplish, whether I send them a message or not (please know that). I will continue to be so proud of them, as I know that they are truly making a difference in this world, both in person and even still, virtually. Congratulations again to the class of 2020! I have a lot of respect with how you dealt with all that went on and while disappointment may have existed, I know you made the most of the opportunities you had and will continue to do so into the future because you all are virtually amazing!

~:[CH9 - Day 177]:~ Pizza My Heart

~:[CH9 - Day 177]:~ Pizza My Heart

It probably was my busiest day of the quarantine. I had to wake up early to set up my computer, ate lunch as we held interviewed, zoomed over to the driving range, rushed back to cook as I forgot it was family night, then got home and edited the rest of the evening. I ended up making homemade pizza and it was quite interesting. After eating Ratatouille, I thought, I could use this to make pizza. Since I was rushing, it didn't taste the same as when I made just the dish itself, but for a first go at pizza, it ended up not being too bad. I made a regular one and a special one with more of a trendy pizza with egg and truffle oil. However, the two best parts of the day were getting out to the range and of course, dropping off the food to see Alyssa smile! She definitely took a pizza my heart when she did. At the end of the day, I enjoyed this feeling of being busy once again as it allowed me to forget about things and just focus on creating. While I had so many issues while editing that I had to simplify it a bit, I figured out a way to maneuver around most of the issues and could smile by evenings end, although I may have regardless. I clicked export before heading to bed and know that tomorrow, I'll be able to relax as I test everything in preparation for the first virtual banquet. 

~:[CH9 - Day 176]:~ Design in Mind

~:[CH9 - Day 176]:~ Design in Mind

I worked with my friend in Japan and was able to complete this mini project as we continue our collaborations. We've actually been working together for about two years now and were suppose to be working at this moment on a few more projects. However, with all that has happened, we have adapted and used what resources we've had to make it work. While I can't share most of what we were working on, I was able to share this fun design we made. Strangely it was a packed day with interviews and editing where I worked longer than most school days. Aside from the errors I was receiving on FCP, it ended up being a great day of work with a lot of designing on my mind. I don't have too much to do to finish up this video aside from navigating around these problems and hopefully I can figure this out tomorrow. We will continuously face limitations as we head forward, however, it is up to us if we allow those things to stop us or if we find a way to allow our minds to design what's ahead.

~:[CH9 - Day 175]:~ We Had a Ball

~:[CH9 - Day 175]:~ We Had a Ball

Today was very similar to how my quarantine schedule has been. I woke up early and lounged around a bit, got some work done, cooked up lunch, got some more work done, cooked up dinner, then back to work. I like to work until about midnight and maybe catch some Kdramas sometime during the day. However, today became more eventful as the little ones came and visited and played around in the backyard for a bit. It was about an hour, but it was more than enough to add something to the days that have been a bit routine. Luckily since I have had work, I haven't gone insane yet, but it's small things like this that truly add what is needed to mix it up every once in awhile. By night's end, I had great memories and finished the work I need to complete by today. Strangely I am ahead of schedule, which is a bit sad, as I rushed thinking I was behind. While I wish I could improve it, I'm happy that I have been able to piece together what I have and watching it makes me a little sad as it reminds me of the things we often take for granted. As much as we lost this year, however, this video also reminded me to be appreciative of what we've had including a visit, no matter how short. 

~:[CH9 - Day 174]:~ Just Random

~:[CH9 - Day 174]:~ Just Random

Somehow there was a mistake and I got invited to be in the live audience for a virtual performance. Since it was in Korea, I had to try to time it so I could wake up to make it in and I kept questioning if it was worth it at all. Honestly, I don't know how I got it, as I requested another performance for my friend, but somehow, I got the e-mail and said what the heck. To not be empty handed, I designed a sign and tried to make those most of this random experience. I had work to do so I easily could have passed on the opportunity, but sometimes you just take a shot to see what it's all about. Regardless, I enjoyed the opportunity and while I'm sure I wouldn't do it again for a group I don't follow too much, I came out glad that I did aside from the fatigue I faced through the day. In the end, I finished what I had planned to finish and hope that by tomorrow, I can wrap up the majority of what I need to finish. For now, however, it's definitely time to sleep!

~:[CH9 - Day 173]:~ Fun & Games

~:[CH9 - Day 173]:~ Celebrate!

My brother had purchased my dad this game and it ended up being a good thing for us to play on this father's day. Normally I'll cook dinner for my dad and we'll just lounge most of the day, but this year, we had a bit of friendly competition in the backyard. I guess the pandemic provided another blessing as we just laughed the day away together. It is these precious moments that we must treasure, as these times remind us that we really don't know how much time we  have together. To a father who at times may have felt like was being tough, has always been trying to teach me about precision and hard work. Regardless, through all we've done, he's shown me love and always follows through when something is needed to be done. To all the fathers and father-like figures out there, you have a job more precious than than anything and I thank you for all that you've done to fill that role in the life of your child, as speaking for experience, it's a job that is more important than anything in the world.

~:[CH9 - Day 172]:~ At the Core

~:[CH9 - Day 172]:~ At the Core

It was just over three months ago and we were in the middle of the battle of the TP. My mother had a pack of toilet paper taken from her cart at Costco and our worries about the future of our bottoms had begun. Little did I know that the gift an awesome friend of mine would be the key to my survival. Sure, maybe it was a gag gift like we've gotten each other so many times, but it became the most valuable of all the things I've had over the course of the pandemic. As I began to think about it even more though, toilet paper is something that, while we may be able to survive without if we really had to (bidets, leaves, worst case scenario ... socks), is something that has become an essential in our every day lives. Sometimes we forget to cherish those things we see every day, but in reality they are something that are the reason why our lives every day are so comfortable. Similarly, as I sat home enraged as I listened to Trump speak out, mocking the virus and saying testing less would result in less positive results, throwing our racist terms such as the Chinese virus and for those who say it's not racist, he also used Kung Fu virus, and spending a bit over two hours trying to defend his ego and further divide this country, I thought about how important it is to be good down to our core. Strangely this toilet paper roll, which was my savior, also reminded me that toilet paper is like our lives. As a roll of toilet paper, we are all layered with paper, some which seems to be better quality than others whether it's the ply, the texture, the size and even sometimes the scent. However, each roll is essential to our lives and we figure out how to work with it. However, when the life of the roll is near and we see what's left over, we truly are all the same. When life closes and we shed all the money, the fame and prestige, and all of our possessions, what will our core be like? Let's strive to be great, but let's also never forget to be good down to the core. Have a great heart and soul, share with others and be one who when all of our layers are shed away, is still treasured for all the amazing memories it brings to our lives. I will miss you my forever roll, I hope that one day, we will meet again. 

~:[CH9 - Day 171]:~ Design Away

~:[CH9 - Day 171]:~ Design Away

I continued designing away after arriving home. It was strange to be so productive, but I ended up making about 12 pieces in a half day. I was suppose to do a little more video editing, but the weekend is dedicated to that so I decided to take a quick mental break before tacking the editing. I was able to send out the first few designs and will finish up the rest. It's been nice to work on projects I wouldn't otherwise be able to work on and connect with people even though I cannot physically be there. While I hope that soon I can be, at least for now, I'm happy with the opportunities I have. 

~:[CH9 - Day 170]:~ Solo

~:[CH9 - Day 170]:~ Solo

I wandered around today, mostly solo. As I ventured through life, I've found that solitude is a good escape from stress. Some people go crazy with solitude, but I welcome it. I took a long drive alone and it felt good. I wandered and while I eventually came across people, it was nice to getaway without having to surround myself with people, especially considering the circumstances. A day earlier, I walked over to the library which is normally crowded with teenagers in the afternoon, but not a soul around. It was surreal. Life in this age is a bit different and I know it won't stay like this forever, but I'll soak it in while I can. It's good to surround yourself with good people, but it's also nice to learn to enjoy being around yourself. It's probably been my greatest lesson in life. 

~:[CH9 - Day 169]:~ Celebrate!

~:[CH9 - Day 169]:~ Celebrate!

It was a time to celebrate during a time of crisis. It was nice to being able to spend time with my father, as I made him lunch and dinner. It may have been simple, but sometimes you realize that you really only need the simplicity of the moment to enjoy something so precious. I was glad that we simply had the time together that we did. I am always amazed at what he is able to do at his age and wish that I'll be able to do at least half of what he still is able to do. I guess this pandemic has once again been a reminder that we should appreciate what we have and enjoy the fact that things have slowed down so we can enjoy them.

~:[CH9 - Day 168]:~ For All We Lost

~:[CH9 - Day 168]:~ For All We Lost

Right about now, I could be working on a collaboration in Korea or Japan, but I am behind my computer at home and sometime on a Zoom call super late at night, trying to coordinate what we can do virtually. Amazingly, I was able to complete one video so far with two on the way and I've also done over 20 images. Of course, as much as I've done, I've lost a lot along the way and it is in what I loss that I find a lack of motivation and a search for a path ahead. To have the break the news that I wouldn't be taking any students to Mammoth for the first time in a long while or to hear about the loss of someone close, it's painful and with each passing of painful news, another thorn gets stuck in my side. It's easy to throw your hands up and give up, but I've continued to use this time to see what's possible, to examine myself, and to speak up when my voice is needed. I hate to pass on things that are negative, but I also can't silence myself on matters that are of great importance. Of course, ALL of us have lost something during this time, but let's be sure that we don't lose ourselves in the process. We must fight and voice our opinions when things are wrong, but we also must understand the situation we're in, knowing that some of the comforts we were used to may no longer be. The fact of the matter is we're going to lose something, but let's make sure we don't lose more than we need to. As I sat here and focused in on finishing this piece, I smiled just a bit knowing that I was happy how it turned out. As while I much rather be on site in a photo studio or working in an office, I'm at least glad that I didn't lose it all and more importantly, I haven't lost myself.

~:[CH9 - Day 167]:~ Not So Little Anymore

~:[CH9 - Day 167]:~ Not So Little Anymore
It was nice to getaway, even if it was just for the day. I trekked down to San Diego and caught my cousin after her drive thru graduation. It's amazing how time flies. You remember them as little kids running around the family gatherings and soon there off to college. It was a pleasure to be able to capture these moments, as while this pandemic has been a pain, it also has opened the door to do things like this. It reminds you about how precious time is and I am forever grateful for all the moments with my wonderful family. I think back to the days when I was little, from getting picked up after getting kicked in the head or getting on to ride Viper for the first time at magic Mountain and I am amazed at how time has flown by. As much as we want this pandemic to end and things to go back to full speed, let's not forget to slow things down and enjoy all those precious things we found when time slowed down. Congratulations!!!

~:[CH9 - Day 166]:~ The Kindest of Souls

~:[CH9 - Day 166]:~ The Kindest of Souls

It's really awesome when you have good people around you. I haven't ventured out to one of my favorite boba places since it's a bit far and I haven't gone out in public too much. However, today I was able to get to fill that craving as I got a special delivery. It's great when people are willing to go the extra mile for you. It makes you realize how amazing the people around you are. I hope that I never make the mistake of taking them for granted as I truly have the kindest of souls surrounding me. It may seem like a small deed for the person helping me out, but it means so much, truly. 

~:[CH9 - Day 165]:~ Precious Minutes

~:[CH9 - Day 165]:~ Precious Minutes

It's amazing how those small interactions we have are pretty easy to take for granted. However, simply the ability to see each other, even if it's for less than an hour, become even more precious when they're taken away. While it's been sad to have those days taken away, it makes these minutes even more precious. I think we all realize what we've lost and we look forward to the day we get them back in hopes that we don't lose them again. It was a glorious day filled with joy as even just a short time meant so much to us all. Let's be sure as we head forward even post-peak pandemic that we don't allow ourselves to take for granted these precious memories and moments. 

~:[CH9 - Day 164]:~ A Thousand Words

~:[CH9 - Day 164]:~ A Thousand Words

They often say that a picture is worth a thousand words. I fell in love with photograph and art at a young age. I have always been around cameras and been handed down cameras which sparked my interest. I've grown to love photography the most as it gives people the ability to remember moments they never want to forget. I think part of the introvert in me loves the camera as it is my barrier enabling me to be apart of the celebration without the discomfort of it all. Today reminded me of just how precious images are as my photo page hit 100k for the day. Aside from the wear and tear on my camera, photography is a gift that you can give without having to give up a cent, but is also priceless at the same time. Although sometimes I wish I could capture the moment as I see it through my eyes (which is why I leave many of my albums unedited since I'd be trying to perfect pictures forever), I think simply capture the moment is more than enough. As while some may say to soak in the moment and put your camera aside, for me, with camera in hand, I am best able to soak in these moments and also relive them for years to come with having to speak any of those thousands words. 

~:[CH9 - Day 163]:~ A Second Chance

~:[CH9 - Day 163]:~ A Second Chance

Life sometimes can be about second chances. Our school completed their official graduation last night virtually, however, they ended up hosting a drive thru graduation, allowing the graduates come in person to receive their diplomas and they sure did come through in force.. Although it was a killer day with over eight hours in the sun and my body was sore when I arrived home, it was an investment and time and energy that was well worth it. As much as these students may have wanted that traditional graduation, they instead had all the components spread across a few days. They also had a chance to have family and friends front and center as they received their diplomas. The decorations on cars, the designed caps, and even the dogs were a plus to the ceremony. Among other things, we found a new mascot, confetti made the event festive, and of course the trolly was one that was not to be missed. However, more importantly, the joy on the faces of the seniors was priceless as they got to walk across the stage even if for just a bit. In the end, in these trying times, I feel like we were able to provide these seniors with a special farewell they can remember. Life doesn't always give you second chances, but when it does, I hope that they can all feel somewhat like this. 

~:[CH9 - Day 162]:~ To the Class of 2020

~:[CH9 - Day 162]:~ To the Class of 2020

Even I said it, I wish that 2020 could get a restart or we can fast forward to 2021. As while this year we have been overwhelmed by so much, I also think it gave us so many opportunities. It gave us more time to reflect on the past, so see what is important, to plan what's ahead, to find those things buried under the pile of clothes in your room and even to connect with your family and friends, even though in many cases it was virtually. You're going to hate that word in the future or will you? I have been so impressed by this class from A to Z. As I saw the names scroll across my screen, I realize how many of you I've been lucky enough to work with, even it was just for a year, a season and for some just the first few days of school. There are so many of you who have achieved great things, who have shown the Cerritos Way, who have had that breakthrough moment or the most important and often underrated accomplishment, making it to this ceremony. The school is better because of the class of 2020 and I know that while this is not the ending that you envisioned, it's actually the start of great things to come. You've faced some of the most difficult moments in a three month span, but I've also seen you fight through the tough days, help those around you keep moving along, and even have heard you raise your voices for issues important to you. My friend said that sometimes when it feels like you're in the dark and been buried, it's actually that you've been planted to sprout another day. Let's take our time to nourish ourselves so that we can grow strong for the world to see. As while these past few months may have been miserable, soon, you will find the light and you will grow like I know you can. Cherish all those memories you've had, reach out and connect with the friends you've made, and be sure to use all the knowledge you gained, whether it's a math equation or simply how to meet a deadline. I am excited to see many of you tomorrow, but as while it's easy to be discouraged and disappointed, celebrate that you had the opportunity. Raise up your head and see the opportunities that await you and see what you can do with all the lemons that 2020 handed to you. I know that you'll be able to make much more than lemonade. As while I am sad we didn't get to say a proper goodbye, I am grateful for all the time that we've had. Congratulations Class of 2020. 

~:[CH9 - Day 161]:~ A Scene from a Movie

~:[CH9 - Day 161]:~ A Scene from a Movie

It was a little strange. It was lunch hour and I was grabbing some food and this normally packed center was empty. I guess it's a new normal where things will be different. From walking in and out restaurant and simply getting change, it was definitely an awkward feeling all around. I guess we will have to learn and adapt to these new changes. In a place all too familiar, it felt so different. I had a "I am Legend" feel as it was an eerie empty feeling. Regardless, I grabbed my food, picked up a few gifts for my friends and  had a quick convo before heading back to finish up my grading for the year. It's definitely a sad ending, but we learn, we adjust, we adapt. Every movie has that moment where the challenge is presented and the main character often keeps their cool and survives. Let's do just that. I know it hasn't been easy for us, but let's keep our cool and survive this, together. Wear your mask, keep your distance and just simply be smart as you move forward so that we don't prolong what has already been a long time. Let's be sure there is no sequel to this movie that has never seemed to end.

~:[CH9 - Day 160]:~ Emptiness

~:[CH9 - Day 160]:~ Emptiness

I had a good morning. I awoke to great news, amazing messages and was happy. I was headed to school to clean up my room and got to run into a few people and chat. It was nice. However, as I cleaned out my room, I normally have a feeling of satisfaction after a great year. I enjoyed this year, but when cleaning my room, by day's end, I felt emptiness. The cobwebs have built up, dust was also there, and the board had dates from March. As everything was put away, I looked at it and wondered, when will I see this class full again. It's likely that we will be back in the fall, but that will look like half a class with a setup that will have little interaction. Many of the things that make learning great will have to be reworked and even with coaching, almost ALL the activities we will be doing, will have to adapt to the new norm. I worked my tail off trying to get everything together, recording and editing lectures and videos, setting up meetings, planning and more over the course of the last (almost) three months.  the biggest issue I faced was that not being around the students was discouraging. That daily interaction is much more valuable that you may realize. I know it took its toll on the students as well. I tossed away so much and prepped for what's ahead. That's really all we can do. We find a way to make things work, adapt and grow. In my profession that will be the case and in may others, it will also ring true. As I walked out the gate, I was reminded that today was the rescheduled drive by grad parade for our LIFE program! I was upset at myself because I didn't have anything prepared, but decided to still jump in and congratulate them. I was glad I did as you could see the joy on their faces, even if it was just a short period of time that people came by for them. it was exactly what I needed and a reminder of how excited I will be when the new school year begins. Even if it's not the same, just having the chance to have that interaction will be a blessing that I will never take for granted. There was emptiness today, but I know it's temporary and soon enough, we'll get to fill that void once again. 

~:[CH9 - Day 159]:~ Looking Forward to Paradise

~:[CH9 - Day 159]:~ Looking Forward to Paradise

My going out is not to the beach or even to a trail, but simply across the street to the market and Tapioca Express. I go to the market every two or three weeks and make a boba run weekly. It shows my priorities. Of course, every time I go out, it's my chance to soak in some Vitamin D and enjoy the outdoors before I crawl back into my hole. The good thing is, I get a lot of work done. This past week  has probably been the busiest from grading projects and speeches, preparing for finals, working on some collabs with people from Japan (online) and kicking off some banquet video editing. Of course, I dream of the paradise that is ahead. Who knows when that will be, but I am hoping that it is soon. The one good thing is that I've been able to invest the money I usually save for traveling. I haven't spent much money aside from groceries and boba, which amazingly adds up significantly. I guess I ate out a lot or paid for a lot of meals. Of course, traveling in itself is also an investment. I can feel the mental health difference when I'm home versus when I get to venture. No, I am not depressed, but you feel so much more motivated and excited about the world after you've explored and after you've made connections. The good things is, I am still able to communicate daily with my friends from Japan and I even got to chat (virtually) with people who I should keep in contact with more, but haven't. It was nice to get outside and I felt great after a wonderfully productive day, but I do look forward to the day that I can head to paradise. 

~:[CH9 - Day 158]:~ For What We Lack

~:[CH9 - Day 158]:~ For What We Lack

I didn't have enough eggs, so my plans were destroyed. It happens. Often in life we discover what we are lacking, but do we simply let it all go to waste? No one has it all, even if it may seem so. The one with all the money may lack happiness or the one with all the skills may lack relationships or the one who is so joyous may lack opportunity. The list goes on and on. It's one of the reasons why we have each other. We find what we are lacking and find those who can fit as pieces to our puzzle. We want to have it all and do it all, but the reality is we need each other. These times are screaming this message - unity, support, together. We need people marching in the streets, we need our online reporters, we need the health care workers, teachers, law enforcement, military and government officials. Once again, the list goes on and on. As while there are problems in almost every system, it's because these systems are lacking and not working together. The Republicans must work with the Democrats, the law enforcement must work with the people, the government must collaborate with its citizens and the people must do their part to keep the stress off the health care workers. There are so many situations where we either lack the ability to do something or we have no control over it, that's exactly while we need to find common ground. We need to be willing to collaborate, cooperate, and communicate. We must not simply say that something is wrong, but figure out solutions to these problems. As I discovered my eggs were lacking, I thought, what else could I make that I was craving. I ended up with something that I hadn't planned on, but I worked with what I had and found a solution rather than complaining, tossing it all aside to give up on it. The people's voices have been heard and while we should still raise our voices, we also at some point must pivot and make it into something more. We must find a way to unite together, work together and understand each other so ultimately we can live with each other. I've been inspired and motivated by so many things I've seen posted and by all the things that people have done, at the same end, I worry when I see things that do the exact opposite; the leaders who spew non-sense and divisiveness, the opportunist who loot and vandalize to distract from the peaceful protests, the enforcement who continue to use force or those who have spewed hate instead of unity and progress. We have a long way to go. Legislation must be passed, education must occur, and people must buy in, but it won't happen unless we can find a way to do it together. I saw a graphic that talked about how we each have our own lane and in reality it's true. We each have our own role in this and during every step of the way, people need to step up, because soon it will be your calling when you fill the void of what is needed. Let's continue to raise our voices, but also let's look towards building a future where we find progress and unity. Some will say I am dreaming of a utopia, but there's no doubt in my mind that together, we've got what it takes. Even when the we don't have enough eggs, I know WE can make something that will satisfy this hunger that this movement has awoken. 

~:[CH9 - Day 157]:~ Precision

~:[CH9 - Day 157]:~ Precision
I don't like to eat at fancy restaurants as often because many times they leave you wanting a lot more food. You have some of the most incredible food, but can go home hungry. However, I like the beauty of their plating which I will never get. My plate ended up looking like, you know what, but at least the food tasted good. Of course, today was a day of precious. I stepped back from grading for a bit after entering the initial grades for my seniors, awaiting any last minute changes. Thus, I focused on two projects I had, one was a special commission for a friend which was quite funny (which I accidentally sent to another group of friends, embarrassingly) and the other was a video I've been working on for another friend. I had to work with another friend to help me translate to time everything right and so many things needed to fall in line. That's exactly what life takes sometimes though, precision. We can't simply wing it sometimes, rather we must focus in on the fine details to ensure that it comes out just right. When you don't, it tends to stand out. It took awhile, but I wrapped everything up so I can really focus in on what I need to do over the weekend. There's a lot to do the next few days, but I guess it's kind of exciting since there are no more assignments to post other than the final. 

~:[CH9 - Day 156]:~ The Blessings of 2020

~:[CH9 - Day 156]:~ The Blessings of 2020

From the start of 2020, I was already talking about how I wanted it to be over. I thought it couldn't get any worse, but problem after problem kept sprouting up when I thought hope was just around the corner. Recently a post has been going around though and it made me think, "is 2020 the most important year?" We've lived in a world that is comfortable and routine, we talk about how busy we are, we were overwhelmed trying to capture those Instagramable and social media post moments, that we allowed life to pass us by. Sure, social media is alive, but it's different. It's not always about trying to capture that perfect moment now. It may not always be used in the right way, but I think more than ever, we are thinking how can this platform be used for the betterment of us all, rather than simply for the betterment of ourselves. Being stuck at home was a pain, as well as missing out on a number of events, trips and other memorable moments, but we also had some time to reflect, to reconnect with family and friends, and to really think about what was important. At first, we may not have been thinking too clearly as the first thing many ran towards was toilet paper and hand sanitizer, but little by little, we adjusted and adapted, as we began to see things we may have missed and have had more time for things that we didn't have time for before. We learned to get by and be more resourceful, we tried to be more respectful of others by going out less, donating when possible, and reaching out to those who we wouldn't have reached out to otherwise. We began to expose holes in our system that we knew existed, but magnified them even more and put on display what needs to be fixed. Sure there have been a number of problems, we worry about our health, we worry about our finances, and we even worry about our safety. There is still a huge divide that may have become even bigger and we see some of the worst things that we never want to see again. However, sometimes things force our hand, slap us across the face, and try to get us to see. Sometimes we are too comfortable, we go with the flow and forget to really think about what we are doing, as we simply go with the flow of all that is going on. Even if you look at the news tomorrow, it may still be chaotic, the pandemic may be ongoing and our financials will still be something that leads us to stress, but all this has helped us wake up and see what we were missing before. We were so consumed by everything around us that in some ways we were begin to lose touch with some of the things that we should focus the most on. Tomorrow, next week, next month and even next year are still going to be tough. All the problems we have today are going to outlast 2020, but reflecting takes time, learning takes time, listening takes time, growing takes time and of course, change takes time. I could never have imagined the disasters that 2020 would hold, but maybe there will be blessings hidden among all the problems we've faced this year. While I hope 2020 can chill just a bit, I also hope that our eyes and ears are open and we are ready to really see what 2020 was all about. ALL of us have lost so much in 2020, but let's make sure that we don't lose ourselves in the process. Let's make sure we overcome these losses and find a way to gain out of all of this, not for ourselves, but for all of humanity. The first half of this battle was quite rough for us all, but let's never give up, keep fighting so that we can truly find the opportunities that 2020 has given us, as only then will we find just how much of a blessing 2020 was for us all.

~:[CH9 - Day 155]:~ Joy in the Heart

~:[CH9 - Day 155]:~ Joy in the Heart

There is a lot of heartbreaking stuff going on in the world. It's hard to soak it in and sometimes you just need to take a short break from it all. Strangely, this is the time that working in my office at home would let me feel all that go away, but I've been here way too many days for that to be the case for now. However, yesterday I was able to have some interaction with people, to see the joy that they had themselves, and to work on a project that also brought me joy. In a time where virtual has taken over, it was nice to at least have had the opportunity to do something "not as virtual" as before. Although I had work to do, I took some time to work with the photos, to edit them and even make some fun edits. On a normal basis, as set of over a thousand photos for standard, but getting back to it was a little daunting, but definitely was what I needed. I dream of the day where I can finally finish up the photo and video projects I am working on abroad, but for now, I'll soak in what I can. As while there is a lot in this world that we need to fix, we also need to make sure we see all the good that is around us that can bring us happiness. As I look at this photo and see this amazing group of students who will represent us around California, up to Alaska and even two at MIT, I am overjoyed that these are just some of the amazing students I get to work with every day. As much as wrong with the world, let's also not forget what is right. Yes we need change, but we also need some of that joy in our heart. 

~:[CH9 - Day 154]:~ Ratatouille

~:[CH9 - Day 154]:~ Ratatouille

Today I made ratatouille, but added a tomato based steak to top it off. It was another day of trying to make a meal from something I saw on a show or movie. I've been wanting to make this for some time and although there is a decent amount of prep to it, it's actually fairly easy and would make for a good pizza actually. The flavors are pretty rich and I was surprised at the burst of herb flavors. It was a perfect way to end a day I enjoyed. It's been such a struggle to stay home, especially considering the number of photo shoots I have missed over the past few months and possible the number I will miss in the next few weeks. I was able to get some shots in with our Escudo de Oro honorees and our athletes of the year since we have to make their group photo. By night's end, I finished the first draft of the picture and had all the photos uploaded into individual albums. It was a busy day, but a productive one which came with a number of rewards including a successfully completed experimental meal. We may be living in such difficult times, but we can also find an escape if we look for it. Today, these were my escapes.

~:[CH9 - Day 153]:~ From Screen to Stove

~:[CH9 - Day 153]:~ From Screen to Stove

I learned to cook by watching my parents in the kitchen when I was young, reading cook books and magazines and watching the cooking channel. My dad and I both have the desire to make a dish after we eat it in a restaurant. Although I always don't have time, this stretch of time has allowed me to unleash more of what I've always wanted to do. I hate watching cooking Kdramas, not because of their content, but because they make me hungry. However, I wondered, are they actually truly showing us how a dish is made. They obviously don't give a recipe, but in watching Eccentric! Chef Moon, I watched his step-by-step process in making this dish and strangely, it came out so delicious. I have a second one I am going to try soon. There so much that we learn in our lives and that foundation is what helps us do thinks we probably wouldn't imagine us doing. To cultivate my love for cooking, I could possibly just wake up one day and say let's cook, but it started as a seed and grew. Similarly, the seeds we plant in our own lives are going to grow depending on how we cultivate it. If we want something in our lives to grow and to become something of significance, we must take the time to tend for it, care for it and ensure that it becomes what we hope it will be. As while there is no guarantee that the care will allow it to become what we hope, we give it the best opportunity. It doesn't happen overnight. It's a process. Patience, diligence, and constant care and love. Cultivate all those things you wish to grow in your life and soon you'll find yourself doing the unimaginable. It may have taken me just 15 minutes to take this dish from screen to stove, but it was all those years of care that allowed it to happen.