~:[CH12 - Day 195]:~ Awkwardly Comfortable

 
~:[CH12 - Day 195]:~ Awkwardly Comfortable

I always wondering how at times I can be so comfortable and others be so awkward. I guess in life, we try to figure out who we are and even after awhile, we don't quite figure ourselves out. We try our best to search for answers or to work on ourselves and sometimes we never quite find the answer. Personally, I typically am fairly quiet, but around certain groups of people or individuals, I open up a lot more, which leaves different views of who I am. Sometimes I wonder, which actually is me? There's nothing wrong with either way about going about things, but sometimes you just wonder. Today was just as divergent as I suffered through trials, yet also had some moments of joy. On my way to shoot, my car battery died. I felt bad as I was suppose to meet someone up in LA, but I failed to come through. Luckily, I was able to get it fixed to get to LA and enjoy the rest of the day with a meetup for drinks then an unscheduled dinner outing with friends. It was in the moment when enjoyed the flame as they prepared our meal that I figured out that sometimes my awkwardness is eliminated by the comfort of my friends and loved ones. When I am with them, meeting new people is not as awkward, but when I am alone, I think it takes a lot longer to open up the gate so they can discover who I think is the real me. To all the future people I meet, I guess the story is, you'll get to know who I am over time; patience is key. Similarly, I guess it opened my eyes to when I meet new people as I'll keep in mind that maybe they just need some time to warm up to people they just met. Regardless, despite the trials of the day, the day ended up being lit and it was more than simply by the fire as they prepared our meal.