~:[CH5 - Day 239]:~ Missing Out

~:[CH5 - Day 239]:~ Missing Out

Sometimes you know you're definitely missing out. After morning practice in PV and lunch, I wasn't feeling great so I took a nap and tried to rest. Even after that, I knew I wasn't feeling good enough to head out to Joshua Tree. I was so sad because I was torn. I wanted to go so bad and didn't to bail, but felt that it would be 24 hours of misery for my mind and body the way I was feeling. In the end, I know I missed out. I haven't heard of the experiences and stories, but I know it's going to be a great trip. Instead, I slept, relaxed, did a little work when I should have been driving. I grabbed dinner with Kendall and later walked around the Pike with Chao and a mob of others. I fel the exhaustion in my body as I walked and had to sit a few times. It made me glad that while I missed out, I made a good decision. Sure, I probably could have stayed home a bit longer, but I got a little bit of play time and a lot more rest and work time. I soaked in the beauty of Long Beach and while I missed out on a sky full of stars and galaxies, I still tried to make the most of the energy and time that I had. I feel so beat right now and tomorrow's rest will back up my decision, however, it even though it may have been the right decision, sometimes, you'll also be conflicted even after the decision is long gone.